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Before officially welcome 2021, is a mainstream to review current year. 

 2020 just ended like this.
Pandemic life really do made me being super unproductive.

Literally wasted about 6 months for doing nothing. *my own fault*

I'd written few goals for myself earlier this year.

Not able to achieve 100% but at least there are few that able to cross out!

1. Get a birthday present for myself ✅
2. Clear off car's loan ✅
3. Starting minimalism concept ✅
4. Keep room/living area clean and tidy ✅
5. Try to bake/cook, at least.... once ✅
6. Get JLPT N2
7. Get a MacBook
8. Control the bad temper
9. Stick to saving challenge ✅
10. Reduce Star X loan ✅
11. Highlight my hair blue
12. Paying house loan for PaMa

...... yup. that's all I committed.

2020 is a grey year to me, with a few sparkles that did lighted me up.

Going briefly here as I might won't be that hardworking to scribble in new post.

• I turned T H I R T Y
• Got myself a MYR1,000 necklace, the most expensive gift I spent for myself so far.
• Get rid of current toxic job and found new job in my favorite city.
• Sister is getting married!
• I bake. A lot!

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So, more to go in my next 2021 post.

Gonna really plan for my 31st year great!

🌞

The Fifth

The fifth year.

五

依然在互相学习

依然在发现优点

依然挖出很多缺点

依然在磨合中

依然 是 同一个人

Blessed 💕

致 我的卅

 如果说要我自己评估一下现在已经三十的自己

我觉得是 不及格 吧 👻

主流来说 三十已经是成熟稳重

虽说可能还没到有洋房名车，可是大都有固定的方向了。

升职的升职

拼事业的拼事业

创业的创业

结婚的结婚

当爸妈的追着孩子跑

大家好像都知道自己在干嘛

即使懵懵懂懂，也是在自己的轨道上前进。

那我在干嘛呢？

没有专长 没有颜值 没有身材

没有屋子 没有背景

不想结婚 不想困在家里

没有什么东西是真正属于我

…… 有啦，

现在一辆市面上最便宜的小轿车💙

也是花了七年才终于从银行把它带回来

事业单调 工作根本不值得提起

别人都是管理阶级了

我还在每天浑浑噩噩… 

每次都问自己到底要参与这些公司的浑水多久

每次都给不了自己答案

想认真工作可是还是会被身边的坏因素被影响

自己都觉得丢脸

知道不应该过于情绪化

世界上什么人事物都有  不需要太在意

可是还是控制不了自己的心情想法

常常把自己搞得狼狈不堪郁闷心塞

又不懂该怎么去真正释怀…

对啊，我就是活得很失败啊！

我就是问题 问题就是我

盖自怨自哀的我两巴掌 然后呢？

我就是懒惰 就是没胆量 

只敢自己消化了坏情绪  继续这样颓废下去

常常都有想法很想逃离现在的生活

什么都不想要 什么都不想记得

什么责任啊想法啊包袱啊都不管

去到一个全新的地方生活整顿自己

我可以这样做吗？

我敢这样做吗？

…

致已经三十岁的我

…… 

无言 

但是 

努力活下去吧

:’)

Into the 3rd decade

July.

Into age thirty. 

Time flies.

Once thought that three-ish was so far away, but now it's here.

Doesn't have too much thought on this.

Still living my messy life.

Tons of goals still pending on my list since 20ish, hopefully those gonna achieve before 40ish.

There's a saying mentioning that, 30 is the start of new life.

I hope it works for me.

So, happy 30th birthday to me! :)

卅 · 继续努力活下去

Better late than never - GOALS

 Marchie twenty twenty.

We all are in the midst of Movement Control Order now due to the pandemic.

Human needs to stay/work/eat/play inside the house.

For myself, I'm staying with family and working from home.

Working from home is not fun for my case =[

I always prefer to have a proper working environment, which gives me the "mood" and allow me to be more concentrate to work tasks.

Yea, I wish to resume to usual working routine asap.

And now, more time to spend at home, means easier to get bored and I think I should scribble this post down.

I'm turning thirty soon, here's little goals/plan for myself:

1. Get a birthday present for myself
2. Clear off car's loan
3. Starting minimalism concept
4. Keep room/living area clean and tidy
5. Try to bake/cook, at least.... once
6. Get JLPT N2
7. Get a MacBook
8. Control the bad temper
9. Stick to saving challenge
10. Reduce Star X loan
11. Highlight my hair blue
12. Paying house loan for PaMa

Yeap.

Let's see how's the result next year ;)